It's All Hidden.

was GLAD tat i didnt FAIL. its so unexpected. i thought i would definitly fail since i didnt study hard enough for it. turn out my geo got 29(w/o including the changes in map). though its not very gd n i dropped by 6 marks, but at least i didnt fail. i didnt expect to even pass for geo tis time. im not glad cuz i got 29, but glad cuz i did better den i expected myself to be.
as for SS, it wasnt a total disaster. manage to pass afterall.. all of a sudden, all my worries turned into relief. same as geo, wasnt glad tat i scored 25, but glad tat i did better den wad i expect of me. furthermore, there aint many ppl hu passed SS in the whole lvl. so i shud feel glad abt it. but i still cant believe tat i passed. i didnt even read thru my sri lanka yet i can tyco shot get 8/13 for partB. well... todae shud be a little glad bah.. unfortunately, we haven gotten back our chi. =/ mr tang wasnt in sch todae. haiz..

but actually i feel kinda sad now... i thk its becuz i could haf scored higher if i had studied better, rather den last min studying.. sad to say, i FAIL again this time. i told myself NOT to delay till the night b4, but ended up repeating the cycle again. when can i reli control myself n REALLY study earlier. i seriously lacked determination! haiz.. o lvl's nxt yr n yet im lacked self-control... C'MON SUSAN!!! SELF-CONTROL!!! as for tis end-of-yr, its worse(compared to mid-yr), i didnt even felt lyk studying at all the night b4 the paper, but i knew i had to, so i juz read thru those tb anyway. i might have scored higher if i had studied well n i felt bad cuz i didnt put in enough effort, compared to others. reckoned i was just lucky to get an acceptable results (though its still not gd enough) haha. i felt so weird. whenever im getting back my paper, i just told myself tat pass would be gd enough, n if i pass wif acceptable results, i would ask myself why didnt i get 5 marks more. im too greedy i guess. tis greediness of mine definitly makes me feel sad. i just felt tat i should haf gotten better, though im still satisfied wif my results currently(or am i?).
well.. mr chan said he set the a.maths paper easier tis time. though im not sure if he reli set it easier, but i would actually rather him set it on o lvl standard. though i wan to pass my a.maths of cuz, but i felt tat the mark is not REAL. tis is not the actual marks tat u're gonna face if tat was o lvl standard. i'd rather see the lousy marks so tat i know whr i stand.

susan, secret-ed at 10:07 PM .

well... i think i felt SAD afterall.. after seeing others' results, i felt SAD, but actaully i should haf felt happier instead. =x
WEIRD.

susan, secret-ed at 11:26 PM .

got back 5 papers today. some's reli saddening while some are quite nice. well.. phy was still fine. manage to maintain my standard. in fact i improved, by 6 marks. but i juz nid tat 1 more mark to A1. nvm. A2's gd too. e.math's EXHILARATING. i didnt even dare to dream for an A1(maybe B4 or wad), furthermore tat kinda marks. when mr chan told me i got 3rd in class(but now 4th), i was lyk, i thk he may haf mistaken bah..me?!?! the one hu always juz manage to pass?!?! even so, tot i might only get 75 to 80. but when i got back the paper, im lyk O.O what the... my hands almost shaking.. its far better den 75...TOTALLY UNBELIEVEABLE. till now i still dun get why i know how to do those qns. i jumped frm 28th ranking in maths to 4th?? guess i was just LUCKY tis time rd bah..no, its VERY LUCKY. i do admit tat i did noe how to do the qns(MIRCALE, since i didnt study as hard for maths), but i didnt dare expect tat much. hell.. if i had not been careless, i wud haf gotten 3 more marks, which will makes it 91. isnt tat nice, since its been a VERY LONG time since i saw 90+ on my papers. yea.. VERY LONG. nvm. im still happy :) a.maths still fine. glad tat i passed after all. though its not very gd, but at least i improved ALOT. yea.. alot, 27marks. take it step by step bah. most saddening is my CHEMISTRY. WAD HAPPENED TO ME?? i dropped 17MARKS!!! frm an A to a goddamn C. tats a hell lot!! only few marks over passing score.. chem is the one i spent 2nd most time studying... and i still cant get over tat 2 mole caculation qns! i didnt know its taken frm THAT equation. the qns are lyk so far back. DAMMIT!! as for english, i FAILED. haiz.. nth to say abt english, only tat i dropped by 4 marks.
well. im worried for tmr... HUMANITIES. DAMMIT. gonna fail my humanities this time... SS, what i studied didnt come out. not even a shit. SEQ was lyk crapping frm my memory... didnt even read thru chap 3. furthermore, many ppl in other classes failed. mdm sue gonna come into our class wif black face again.. haiz... as for geography... DEAD is the only word. gonna get a scolding frm mrs ang 1st thing in the morning. not a gd thing to start the morning wif. SIGH.. many facts i didnt manage to rmb, not enough content i felt. just hope tat i could pass, though i know most probably i wun. only 20% hopes of passing... as for chinese, should be okay bah... should be able to pass unless teacher mark very strict.
in conclusion, my feeling now is a mixture, a mixture of sadness n elation. one min happy, nxt min sad. not gd for health, i may go bonkers. haha. some results are reli unexpected. but most of my happiness haf faded away, to the disastrous results im gonna face tmr.

susan, secret-ed at 10:08 PM .

went to bugis todae. shopped ard wif charlene, sj, carissa, sheryl, yuzhen, kaiqi n shilin. had loads of fun. haha. kaiqi was lyk the tour guide. we shopped bugis streets den in the end went to bras basah. todae, charlene forgot to took her MEDICINE. poor charlene is having illusion again. imagining tat bugis is genting. wif all the roller coaster, theme parks etc. even imagined the train tracks in bishan as roller coasters. lolx. den several ppl kept calling carissa's hp, looking for Steven. carissa was lyk," y everyone tat called is looking for steven?" haha... so funny.. den we went to look at earrings, den charlene helped me choose n i said it was very stiff. den charlene said," stiff... STEVEN!" HAHAHA. it was damn funny. took neoprint.. n 7 of us manage to squeeze into the screen. but i look yucky in it. nvm. oso met wif a damn rude person hu ask us to donate. wad kind of attitude is tat?? anyway, charlene wants to get back her tie from coli n we took turns to call her.. i even smsed her in bold letters. thk we called abt more den 20times bah.. imagine when coli sees her phone, 'TWENTY MISSED CALLS' haha.

susan, secret-ed at 11:57 PM .

well.. todae's bro bdae. or rather ytd.. nth much.. aunt came my house... mummy ordered pizzas... watch 6 episode of korean drama todae. now feeling a little light-headed due to too much of watching tv. but seriously, its nice. its called, Fashion 70's. especially love the starting, nice, touching, thrilling. makes u wan for more. haha. but the story seems darned long. nvm i will take mmy time to watch it, since exams are over. xD just bought cake for bro.. haiz.. .todae seems like thr's so much to eat. makes me so bloated. :/ nvr bought anything for bro tis time, no time to buy. was thking of buying him a billabong pencilcase, maybe during the holis bah. well.. gonna go out tmr.. :D <3 hmm.. i thk watching too much of dvds oso get me depressed. LOL. anw.. nth to do now. kinda bored. LOL
oh ya... forgot to add in..
ytd.. had such a nice slp. 3 nice dreams. haha.. woke up at 5+ in the morning to find myself insane. still rmb tat i laughed till i had probs walking in my dreams. the last one was about a news report.. darned funny n cute.. sucha cute pigeon wif the woman.. haha.. hard to describe here. how the hell did i manage to dream of such funny scenario? does tis shows tat im tat happy when exam's over

HAHAHAHAHAA

susan, secret-ed at 12:47 AM .

well.. todae didnt turn out as bored as i thought, wif those self-obsessed of us taking photos. =x haha. its fun. :) loads of joy n laughters. loads of funny things. enjoyed the day wif char siew bun, SRB, curry sauce, steam fish n silent killer. LOVES <3
kinda saddening to see those sec4s leaving the sch soon. todae lots shed their tears.. n nxt yr wud be our turn.. haiz.. wondered ard in northpt wif SRB n CSB after performance till 6+.. den when home..
mama just bought me a new panasonic clip-on headphones. still not very sure how to use it. haha. kinda "sua ku" of me rite? the thing just dun clip tight enough for me. or is all clip-on headphones lyk tat? was comparing it wif 2 other earphones. one totally sucks. the previous sony one tat i have been using, tat comes with the discman, totally rocks. just realised how the sound system rocks.. though the new one isnt bad too, but i still love the previous one cuz its earphones, thus louder. but one is faulty so if i were to use, i could only use the right one which aint better den using both.

susan, secret-ed at 10:54 PM .

yea... exams finally over. phew... but gonna deal wif the results. >.< haiz.. reckon i wud score miserably tis time rd.. dun dare to wish for more, pass very gd liao.. slacking ard during end of yr, as compared to mid-yr... anyway... its all over.. to hell wif the results tat i would face. thrs nth i can do, n i knew its all my fault for not studying well. i haf no rights to feel sad.
anyway, shan't talk abt it anymore, juz relax the next few days bah. depressingly, i still haf got co performance todae n tmr.. hopes of relaxing after last paper was demolished... nvm its only 2 days.. learn to enjoy it wud make u feel better. hell.. tmr's the performance n yet we only got the new scores todae. its lyk, we all have to practise it within an afternoon n rehearse it. abit too ridiculous, isnt it?
oh yea, last few days net's having probs. its all solved now. tat explain y i haven been blogging for wks. hmm... lets list down a list of things to do since its after exams. heh heh... gotta go SHOPPING!!! wanna buy lots of stuffs. x) n i haven been swimming for more den a mth!!! haha.. gonna continue my cycle of weekly swimming. SWIMMING, my Fav!! gotta go library n borrow more bks. haha. books?!?! yea, BOOKS! my fav hobby is reading. :) haven got a chance to read bks tis yr, now its all over! btw, any recommendations of famous bks, ppl? well.. im gonna tidy my rm one of these days. its darned messy. n i wud lyk to pump my bike to go cycling. its been a long time since i last cycled. and ya.. i wanna play some games of badminton wif sywell.. provided tat i manage to find my racket. wud lyk to shop for more assn bks at bras basah too.. and.. most importantly... watch KOREAN DRAMAS!!! aunt juz lent us tons of dramas to watch... hehe.. lots of plans.. hehe.. well.. gotta go slp now, getting tired.. need treat my eyebags n dark circles frm late nights.. its reli scary tat i myself is shocked at myself too.. gotta read bks b4 i sleep.. hehe.. ntiez..

susan, secret-ed at 10:29 PM .

well... haf been real bad these days.. thurs.. was starting to sneeze n throat feels so hot.. fri... sore throat, running nose n ulcer at the same time. Damn it. nose running lyk tap water.. throat so warm... den no choice cant go mac.. if not i wud haf been at mac now. hafing so much discomfort now. sneeze until ear wan explode liao. =/ haf been slping alot since ytd... juz cant stand the discomfort so chose slping to ease. haiz.. my amaths is within a wk's time n yet im not prepared for it. hell... i certainly lack motivation n determination. motivate me, anybody?? haha... guess i wud study later... but its hard with tat running-lyk-tap nose, the pain n warm throat n that irritating ulcer. ARGH!!

susan, secret-ed at 11:15 PM .

well.. forgot to write abt the overnight study at mac.. everything was fine except for an idoitic guy. went khatib mac to study... den saw tis guy coming into mac, didnt reli notice him. den after some while, he started walking ard, doing nth... n gripping his shirt for dun wad reason n walking ard mac. i was alrdy frightened by tis weird behaviour of him... moreover its alrdy midnight n yet hes loitering in mac. den i saw him going down the stairs so i tot hes finally gone n i can study in peace. i was alrdy darn afraid of him then. unfortunately, i was sitting rite next to the emergency exit door on 2nd floor. den i saw lihui staring wide-eyed at something. den i turned n looked.. HE SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME!!! i almost got an heart atk!!! its worst den watching an horror movie! i tot i saw a ghost! fortunately, i wasnt eating anything then if not i wud haf been choked. my heart reli JUMPED. its lyk im alrdy so frightened abt tis weird guy n yet hes popping rite beside me suddenly. furthermore, the corridor outside is quite spooky too. since then i moved farther away frm the door. luckily my heart still quite strong. phew.. den he keep going in n out of the door... haiz..

susan, secret-ed at 10:54 PM .